I didn't want to share this testimony, it hurt as I saw it happen, and God's anger was kindled, but the Holy Spirit reminded me it is necessary to know that God is to be greatly feared and respected. God gives and takes away, God shares His incomprehensible love, and is just as willing to pour out His anger on disobedience. I share this testimony in obedience to the Holy Spirit.
Marcus reached out to me over email asking for prayer. He was misdiagnosed with medication and injections that poisoned his entire body. From hormonal issues, deformity, and impaired cognitive functioning, Marcus was in a bad place and needed a miracle but had faith Jesus could heal him.
So, we set up an impromptu prayer meeting and in this session he described his situation. As he spoke, the Holy Spirit revealed to me that he was called to be a prophet, which immediately explained his situation. The enemy often sends extreme levels of oppression to those with a calling from God. We got into prayer and not long into it, I opened my eyes and I was blown away, his face changed! Marcus' face went from having a slight deformity and general roundness, to appearing like he lost 20 pounds and received complete facial restoration! The look on both our faces was amazement, but God didn't stop there.
Before the prayer session started, Marcus had a speech impediment which made communication a difficulty, but right after the first prayer session Marcus was suddenly able to speak completely normally! We were ecstatic and were glorifying God, I asked him if there was any other issues we could pray for in hopes the Lord would bring a miracle there too. He said the vision in his right eye was blurry and that his body often feels exhausted (likely due to the damage from the misdiagnoses).
Immediately, I prayed for the Holy Spirit to heal his eye. I placed my hand over my eye and asked Marcus to do the same to his, after the first time praying his vision was slightly better. After a few more times of this and keeping the faith strong, Marcus' vision was 100% restored! And throughout the prayer session I could see his face glowing brighter and brighter, like there was more color entering into him. We prayed for his strength to return to his body, and not long after he was able to feel a difference! We were in amazement of God's love and power, we were filled with joy and praises to the Lord, how great is our God!
During our prayer session, Marcus revealed to me some sin he was struggling with and after these miracle I told him that it's time to go all in with the Lord. God's been gracious to extend this hand of love and tolerance, but he needs to answer the calling God has on his life and Marcus agreed. I really felt the Lord place on my heart to have Marcus testify of this miracle in some way (email, video, audio, any format.). He agreed and said he'd get back soon with a video. This is when things took a turn.
The next day Marcus reached out saying he wouldn't send his testimony because his sleep didn't return and that he felt his mind was being controlled. He stated he'd send the testimony after God finished what he started in him. After reading this, my heart sunk. I felt the anger of the Lord kindle, the Holy Spirit shared with me how upset He was because of Marcus' ungrateful attitude and unwillingness to testify. Marcus had an opportunity to glorify God, but ended up robbing Him of His testimony.
Later that night, the Holy Spirit began to give me a prophetic download on Marcus. From his full government name to the pornography he watched after receiving the healing miracle, God was not pleased. A couple days from the miracle, the Holy Spirit told me He took away the healing Marcus received because of this wickedness. I was asking the Lord to have mercy and to bring complete restoration, but the Lord revealed Marcus is going to have to come back to Him in deeper levels of humility before receiving the healing again. It wasn't a complete no to receive healing, but the words "true repentance" were ringing like a bell in my spirit during this conversation with the Lord.
Interestingly enough, Marcus reached out again asking for another prayer session, I agreed. During this prayer session I shared with Marcus everything the Holy Spirit revealed to me about his sin, and he confirmed it was true. I told him the truth, he needed to repent and end it. I reminded him of the kindness God shared with him, not only on the cross, but in a intimate way giving him those miracles. Marcus then said his vision went back to being blurry and I could hear his voice had returned to stuttering. The Lord revealed to me he needed deliverance, so with that direction from the Lord, we stared the deliverance session. After a few manifestations a handful of unclean spirits left.
After the deliverance session, I asked him a few questions about his relationship with Christ, it was evident he didn't really have one. I ministered to him the seriousness of developing a relationship with Christ, and recommended devotional bible reading time. He implied he couldn't do that because of his mindstate, that's when the Holy Spirit's anger kindled again, no different than prophesying, God's anger was a fire in my bones I couldn't hold back. I told him how ungrateful he was. I told him how merciful God was to even deliver him after he watched pornography and refused to testify less than 24 hours after a life changing miracle.
To Marcus and anyone else living like this, Jesus might be your God, but you need to make Him your Lord. Lord is "someone or something having power, authority, or influence; a master or ruler." no one is special, we are all expected to turn from sin, deny ourselves, and carry our cross. We can't claim we're of Christ and live like a reprobate.
Luke 6:46 "And why call ye me, Lord, Lord, and do not the things which I say?"
The mercy of Christ is there, but it's there to catch you when you fall so you can get back up and finish your race.
Romans 11:22 "Behold therefore the goodness and severity of God: on them which fell, severity; but toward thee, goodness, if thou continue in his goodness: otherwise thou also shalt be cut off."
1 Peter 2:16 "As free, and not using your liberty for a cloke of maliciousness, but as the servants of God."